Just Wondering

Place. My room.

My roommate had the remote. He was flipping through the channels, while I was listening to music on my lappie. And it was going like this for quite some time.

Call it timing, or pure luck but my friend had stopped at a music channel and at the same moment the song ended and stopped playing on my lappie.

At that moment we both were listening to that one song on TV. Nothing else made a sound. Nothing even moved. Except for the song playing and the ceiling fan rotating everything else was silent. It made for a surreal setting.

That moment seemed as if stuck in twilight.

That moment went away as swiftly as it had come. My roommates fingers twitched on the remote again, the T.V humbly followed and changed the channel.

The situation was like this, we both were given a choice at that instant. We both gave a precious 30 seconds of our mortal life listening to the song. He chose not to listen to it, while I chose that I wanted to listen. But he had the remote and he changed the channel, leaving me with the thoughts as to whether I would be able to hear this song again. I could not catch the name of the song, nor the band, nor the lyrics, nor any clue. All I could catch was a lovely tune which was now lost in time.

I began to wonder, how many times in our lives do we have to face a similar situation. Just as my roommate had the control over the infinitesimally small moment, similarly at times other forces too control our lives and destiny for a certain amount of time. But it makes a lot of difference and at times it leaves a lasting impression.

Just as I had compromised on my choice, I wonder how many people had to compromise because of one or many unwanted compulsions in their lives. How many people did not take up a nice lucrative job because their wives were pregnant? How many people would have just picked up a piece of expensive jewellery and put it back again just because they could not afford it? How many people could not marry somebody whom they loved just because they did not say it?

How many, just how many were forced to do something they otherwise would not have done? Just because at that moment the remote control of their lives were not with them but with somebody else? How cruel and helpless it feels knowing that for that particular moment you are not in control of your own destiny?

And in some situations you are no longer in control for the rest of your life.

Just wondering.....

Life goes on as it usually does.